I Wanna Be A Rock Star

I have never really had the desire to become a rock star. Maybe it's because I am too self-conscious and don't like my picture taken or maybe it's just because I absolutely CANNOT sing. Anyway, there is a song by Third Day, my favorite band EVER, called "I Want to be A Rock Star" and every time it is on I can't help but sing it at the top of my lungs (of course NO ONE else is ever in the room).

I don't know, maybe we all, including me, want to be rich, famous, talented, irresistible. I have two beautiful 8 almost nine year old daughters and I have heard them say more than once, "I want to be a Rock Star when I grow up". I, of course, being very realistic have always talked with them about the down sides of fame. As a mother I cringe at the thought of my children being trapped in that world, but as a woman I understand their endless need to be recognized and loved.

It has taken me 33 years to see that I have had this before the creation of the world. The One who created the heavens and the earth, the King, the Almighty God sees me! He not only sees me but created me ON PURPOSE! Can you believe that? Most days I can't. I make so many mistakes and choose what is not best way too often. But He knew that before He even CHOSE to create me. God is really not as famous in our world as He should be. Maybe it's because He is unseen. Maybe it is because He isn't seen as "cool" by the world's standards. Maybe it's because people don't really KNOW Him. Maybe it's because His public image has been marred by so many over the years.

The rock stars we listen to and watch their every move, do we really know them? Are they truly what they appear to be? If you saw one of them on the street without their make up or bare mid drifts or hair extensions, would you recognize them? I guess maybe if you were a true fan you might, but most of us would pass them by like they were any other Jane doe. Isn't that how we are with God? Bad things happen and we start to blame Him. Good things happen and we don't even recognize Him. We watch the most beautiful sunset we have ever seen and never even think about Who created it. We are so easily fooled because we lack knowledge of Him.

I know it isn't considered "cool" to read your Bible, but it is the most intriguing, fascinating, insightful, loving book you will ever read. Through it, you can come to truly know the God who created the entire universe; every star, every tree, every speck of sand, every gorgeous sunset, and YOU. But, there is a difference in God's eyes between that star in the sky and you. He created you for an ETERNAL purpose. He knew everything you would do and say in your lifetime and He created you anyway. How amazing is that? I know that I am overcome each time I think about it. And that is not all! He also wants to know you and for you to know Him on a personal level. When was the last time your favorite rock star called you up and said, "Hey, I really want to know you and I want you to know me, so let's make a date everyday for the rest of all eternity to sit down and get to know each other." This is what God, the ultimate Rock Star, is inviting you to do.

Take some time and get to know Him. He is irresistible and He sees you as irresistible too.

My Crazy Life

I have decided that maybe my life is a little too crazy to take time out to blog. I have good intentions each day to sit down and write down my thoughts, ideas, frustrations, etc but next thing I know the day is gone and no blog written.

This is not only true of blogging but many other things as well such as my Bible study, the laundry, and writing overdue thank you notes. Where does the time go? Am I the only one with this time disappearing problem? I pride myself in being a very organized person but lately I just can't seem to hold it altogether.

Last weekend was our church's first ever Women's Retreat. I was on the team that planned and the event and wouldn't you know it ONE day before the event I wake up at 5 am to the worst back pain I have ever had in my life. After an hour of trying to "walk it off", my husband finally convinced me that I needed to go to the emergency room. By 9 am I was home again with a bottle of muscle relaxers and a bottle of Vicotin. And believe it or not, by 10 am I was at the retreat site helping the others finish up the preparations.

I am wondering, why do we do this to ourselves? Is it just me that cannot seem to say "no" or be "left out" of something? It is one week after the retreat and I am still in pain. If I had only stopped long enough to take care of myself by going to the chiropractor, maybe I would be able to clean my house or do my laundry instead of whine and cry to my husband that I am in pain.

I have come to some conclusions in all of this:
1. I try to do WAY too much!
2. I don't HAVE to do half of the things I think I have to do.
3. Staying home with my family and snuggling on the couch watching a movie is what I NEED to be doing more often!
4. God is good ALL the time and ALL the time God is good!

This may seem like sort of a "downer" blog but it is not meant to be. This is self discovery at its best. When you truly and finally "get it"! I NEED to take care of myself. I have a three beautiful, growing children counting on me and they need me to be well. I don't like missing out on going somewhere with them because it will take me too long to walk from the car or because I can't sit that long. Don't get me wrong, things like planning Women's Retreats are important, but everything in moderation.

My focus has changed. God first, this is non-negotiable! But it does not mean constantly serving in abosolutely every area I can find. This means sitting on the couch in my jammies with a cup of coffee and my Bible learning everything I can about the God who went to such extremes to save me from myself. My husband second! We have been married for almost 10 years and the man has not only put up with me but still loves me, I think maybe he deserves some of my time :)! My kids come next! They are growing and changing so fast and I don't want them to think I don't have time for them. Now is the time to be so invested in them I barely have time for anything else. As far as everything else, whatever time and energy I have left, I will devote myself to it, but NOT at the expense of the top three!

My Very First Blog

I thought today was as good a day as any to join in with all of you other bloggers. My name is Shari Conley and I live in a VERY small town in Missouri. It is currently snowing outside my window but much to my three beautiful children's dismay, they still had to go to school. So, that leaves me here with nowhere to go (I don't like to drive in snow, and even if I did, my car doesn't work right now) and nothing to do. HA HA HA! I am the wife of a currently self-employed contractor, the mother of a 9 year old son and 2, yes 2 eight year old daughters. I ALWAYS have something to do! And of course I am not alone, I am blessed with the company of our 2 dogs, 6 fish, and 1 cat.



My dilema today, is what SHOULD I do? Of course as everyday, my house could use some cleaning, but that is not really that much fun and it could wait till tomorrow. I could create something new and exciting for my somewhat new Etsy children's boutique (http://www.mysweetchickadee.etsy.com/), or I could refuse to be responsible and do nothing. I will sit here awhile and dream of doing nothing at all, but in the end reality will set in and my obssesive complusive nature will allow me to do nothing less than EVERYTHING!!! Anyone else have this problem??? Please say you do even if it is only to make me feel better :).



No matter what gets done or doesn't get done today, it will be a great day! Because just like everyday, today is the day the Lord has made, and I will rejoice and be glad in it. I live such a blessed life and am so grateful to my Creator for all He does for me. Just last week, my contractor husband, Scott, was let go from his job (this is why he is currently self-employed). But God has been SO good! Scott has worked almost everyday since that day and has 2 weeks worth of work lined up.

Well, I am already itching to get something done, so I guess it is time to wrap this up and get to work! I you all have a beautiful day and take the time to rejoice and be glad in it!